a toast to indulgance

A 21st century semi-bohemian.- I guess thats what I'd call myself. and what do I miss about money? - absolutly nothing. everything.- I miss what I could get with it. - dollar-twenty five coffee cakes and cinnimon sticks- 2 each. - with a cup of ignorance on the house- but the cream will be $6. - I just inadvertally accepted the fact that my indulgance was supporting the people who dont let the enlightened ones eat enough. - And I've been saying it for years. "Someday, I'll do something astounding" I'm indulging in simplicity. I'm empty when I do it, so why am I still here? - I've smoked to much.- I've drank and drugged myself to the verge of permanant damage.- I've been in love with the thought that someone I could never have would look at me the way they look at the size 4 blonde more times than I can count.- I've been hurt to much. - I like sex and beer and short skirts.- I like to dance. - Does indulgance make me ignorant? - I hate money, but I'll take anything free.- and what do I have to show for what I've learned?- compassion?- I eat bread and mustard for days before I spend money on caviar and wine. - Its not guilt. its that I've been there. - Its my way of making up for not being out there, fighting the good fight, - I'm still here.- complacant and bored, waiting for someone or something to strip me completely of my material attachments. So I can dive in head first, stripped down and ready for the fight of my life- ready for some damn commitment- i say bohieman because I spend my time on the couch, starving myself and talking crazy, starved, philosophy to everyone that'll sit down long enough to listen- I'd rather give my money to the sincere and homeless, - if they ask for it, they obviously need it more than I do. - and they talk crazy, starved philosophy with me for hours- I read to much. - and dont sing enough.- So heres to bohiemia, heres to knowledge. - and a toast to those who make movies for us.- theres not as much singing as one might think,- its harder then it looks.- I dont indulge like I used to...- I Think now... and I'm damn happy.-