Short: from a while back, post Shawn era I think

So I was ignorant. Because sometimes its to much to handle, and sometimes it better to cry a million times for less reason then cry for something I should have stayed away from. I gave up horrible habits and peeked out of my hole, for something that might satisfy me. Something I wanted more than a hit, something where I wouldnt have to listen to anyone. And it was okay to tell everyone this secret, because I was happy in it, thats all they wanted. and I never said I wasnt excited about life, I was just impatient for death.